With my dreams and desires, I sometimes feel like this mother who has given birth to a child. She is beautiful, perfect, and all that I have imagined. She has some flaws, but it doesn’t matter — she is my child. She is a part of me, and as such I’ll cherish her forever. I hold my child for just a moment — in that brief moment, I am happy beyond what I can imagine, for the glimpse of my child — but then I watch her struggle to take in breath. She can’t breathe the air in this world outside of my body. It’s killing her. She keeps trying to breathe in, and she makes a horrendous gurgling, choking sound.Continue reading
Game Developer Survey Question Four: What services do you need?
The fourth question asked developers what they needed in terms of services. Whether it’s coaching, music, or marketing, indie developers let us know what they needed. One again, funding was a popular answer, but because it is a service, it was not included in the responses below.
Question Four: What services do you feel you yourself, your company, or your project need most?
Game Developer Survey Question Three: What are your failures?
Facing up to our failures are often the hardest thing to do. Sometimes we try the best that we can, but we still don’t succeed. Reflecting on these failures can help us to achieve more and do better in the future. That’s why the third question focused on failures:
Question 3: What are some of the things that you tried and failed at?
Game Developer Survey Question Two: What’s keeping you from obtaining your goals?
The second question on the game developer needs survey asked what it is that kept developers from reaching their goals. The overwhelmingly reoccurring response type had to do with obtaining funding, but there were other very large concerns.
Question: What are some things that are keeping you from reaching your development goals?Continue reading
Game Developer Survey Question One: What are your goals for this year?
Here is a summary of the responses to the first question on the game development needs survey I put out. I had 10 responses total.
Question: What are some of the things you want to accomplish this year as a game developer? Some examples: “I would like to publish four polished platformer games and have them reach the top ten of the iTunes App Store.” “I would like to secure funding for one of my games.” Feel free to list as many goals as you’d like; where possible, separate into different paragraphs.What are some of the things you want to accomplish this year as a game developer?
Character Design: Tabithe
Tabithe’s second outfit in the story Rainfall is described as an orange jumpsuit with three quarter lace sleeves. She wears thick orange bracelets, paired with thin gold and pearl bracelets, and tangerine-jeweled slave anklets/barefoot sandals. Under the cut you’ll find some images that are a pretty good real-life representation of the outfit. Check it out!
Things I’m Watching Right Now
White Collar (Season Three)
Hyouka – just ended
Jinrui wa Suitaishimashita – just ended
Character Vignette – Tethys
She’s about to start crying.
This is always the awkward part. I’m never quite sure what to do. She’s sitting at the edge of the bed, still in her nightgown. She’s picking at the cuticles of her nails, but she’s looking dead at me. Tears have brimmed up on the bottom lid of her eyes. They’re a soft brown color, like when autumn has just broken into its full bloom, but long before it starts to die out. Her dark brown hair is disheveled around her shoulders, and she has her toes scrunched up in the rug.
It’s just past one in the morning. She woke up because she heard the door creak.
Her name is Isabella.
She’s just realized that she’s about to become a one night stand.
The Way I Write
WARNING. This is a quick ramble. I want to get this out here and cataloged so I can see it later.
When I write, I get very caught up in imagery from music. I just discovered “High Hopes in Velvet Ropes”, by The Cab, and it personifies one of my characters, Tethys, perfectly. But I’m a very situational, dialogue driven writer. Right now I’m writing out the scene based on just the dialogue alone. THis is my writing exercise for tonight. This is how I’ve always been organized, I think. I write and then expand outward. I started out doing my serious writing through doing screenplays of what my little TV series was going to be for one of my concepts. Then I started to branch out into fanfiction with more prose.
I’m going to go back to writing, but I really wanted to try and get that out there. Will be working on some Matters of the Heart stuff tonight, and then finalizing some plans for an event I’m trying to throw for Halloween/
Streamlining
I’m sorry that I haven’t posted much. I don’t think anyone really reads this as it is, but I’ll apologize to those of you who do as it may be. I’ve been really busy working. My life has kept me busy, as well as my ambitions. I’ve worked almost every day save yesterday (Saturday) and I’m working again today at 5 at a trivia event. I’ve been busy trying to get back into classes so that I can finish my degree, and working toward a goal of staying in Japan for six months next year. There’s also been a LOT of streamlining going on.
What do I mean by that? I mean that I’m taking a lot of the things that I’ve been wanting to do – hopes, desires, passions – and keeping them in one place, trying to narrow down my focuses to what I can be most effective at doing. I’ve been looking into things that would let me transform into Miss 1099 – the female worker who decides her own future – and making goals for how to accomplish that. I got the end points finished, and now it’s just putting down the goals, methods to achieve them, and the milestones.
I’ve been feeling lately like I’m trying to do too much, but now I’m wondering if it’s just that I haven’t really started implementing the ways to make money from the things that I want to do. If I can start doing that, then I’ll start generating replacement income and stop feeling so obligated toward my 9 to 5. And once I become confident in my path and my goals, I’ll be unstoppable.